31.8.06
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign, the loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind
Here I am, will you send me an angel?
1:33 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
30.8.06
And on Sunday, my family and I came together for the first month anniversary of the newest addition to the family.
His name's Isaac and he's the most adorable baby nephew! (Sarah.. Isaac.. Get it? Haha.)
Um, he still looks newborn, doesn't he? I know. My mom commented that he seemed like he hadn't grown at all. Oh well. there was a whole tray overflowing with red eggs.
And today, there was Parent Teacher Meeting. Mr Malik told my mom I needed improvement but he could see the effort I was putting into my Math, even in class... I passed my English (A2, shucks) Combined Humanities (B4 I think) Geography (A2, I know, like how is that even possible?) and, um, DNT. I can't remember my grade, but it was a B.
Awesome, oh wow! Like, totally freak me out, I mean right on!
Haha. And my mom and I went for dinner at Ikea after that. The cheesecake is still plaguing my stomach, it was so rich. But it was altogether very nice. (:
10:24 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
24.8.06
I'm sorry, I truly am.
Guess I've screwed up really big time, this time.
How the hell do I manage to get everyone around me pissed off with me? What the hell have I
done? Every single thing I do and/or say is wrong. Everything I touch falls to pieces. Even my tear ducts don't function like they should, they constantly leak.
I have so many things to do. Twenty four hours in a day, seven days a week. Four weeks in a month, twelve months in a year, ten years in a decade, a hundred years in a century.
How can I satisfy everyone around me with that little time? Minus my school hours, my extra lessons, my tuition, my study hours, my church hours, my cell group hours, my bible study hours, the list goes on. It's surprising that I have time to sleep, with all the catching up I have to do and tests I have to make up and grades I have to achieve.
I think I'm dying, seriously, from all the shit I have to take, all the tests I have to do, all the work I have to catch up on, all the people whose company I have to satisfy, all the crap I get from dear old mum, and most importantly, I think I'm dying from dehydration by the alarming amount of water that's leaking out from me.
Yes, that's right, at the tender age of fifteen.
9:33 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
I JUST SENT MY PHONE FOR SERVICING BECAUSE IT KEEPS PULLING AN AUTO SHUT DOWN ON ME AND THE GUY INFORMED ME THAT ALL MY DATA (
MAJORLY PHOTOS) WILL BE LOST LIKE *()^#%_(^(^%_%^#*&%(&$*@^%&*#^&+#$%&#+%&(#*%&*#^&)+#^&#$^&#^(*&#()%&#*(%&(#)&%#_&^+_#&^+#&^#+_^+$#^&#(*)%&@()%(@%#(%&(#^&*#
Anyway, on the plus side, the servicing guy was really cute. His name's Lee.
9:10 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
19.8.06
Currently reading: Neil Humphreys' Scribbles from the same Islandahahahahahaha met Mel today to study and breakfast and all and after that met Zhao Xuan for lunch and everything and we went to Borders to read and omg Neil Humphreys is hysterically funny I nearly died from the effort of trying not to laugh : D
6:18 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
18.8.06
Currently reading: Neil Humphrey's Final Notes from a great island: A Farewell Tour of Singapore
I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But everytime I close my eyes
You're still inside my heart
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart?
I miss, love, adore, delight in, admire, cherish, esteem, exalt, treasure, revere, venerate, value, apprize, pleasure in, hold dear...
Do you ever?
5:16 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
17.8.06
I watched as the young man strolled past with a little girl hoisted firmly onto his hip. He seemed much too young to be a father. Much less of this little girl, who seemed to be about five or six years of age. They were chatting animatedly and the girl suddenly gave her young father a big grin and held aloft her arm in the air.
My heart gave a quick beat of recognition as I glanced at the object wrapped in silver and transparent plastic, tied with a ribbon, clutched in her hand.
She held in her hand, like a proud soldier waving a banner, a blue rose.
9:47 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
14.8.06
You've told me everything you wouldn't tell me before.
So it's about me.
Is this really what you want, baby?
But I don't want you to leave.
Cause I'm in it too, hook, line and sinker.
Tell me you're still here.
Say it.
11:19 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
9.8.06
Currently Reading: Sidney Sheldon's A Stranger in the Mirror HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN DARLING!<3Yesterday went to Sentosa with Karen Darling, Robin, Zhao Xuan and Michael to celebrate Karen's birthday. She's now a legal 18. And can do all the things everyone everywhere wants to do! Not fair. : D
Anyway. Met them at Harbourfront at nearly 3. Then we cabbed into Siloso. Robin paid. He paid for, like, everything yesterday. Blessed to bless(: Haha and then went with Karen to change into her bikini bottom. Went back and found the guys playing volleyball. And they tried to teach me. Lol. Zhao Xuan and Robin against Karen, Michael and me. I served a lot but hor, was still... nevermind. Kept outing the ball. Lol. Played for quite long but it seemed very short. Then we started playing frisbee. Then played volleyball again.
Then we like went to ask these 4 people whether we could play basketball with them. Then cause it was 4 on five, this uncle came up and wanted to play. So he joined the other team. Then played. Our team won. Lol. Then we went to sit under the tree and slack. Robin and Karen went into the water. Haha then I played finger games with Zhao Xuan. Didn't go into the water cause we were both wearing white shorts haha(: I was wearing white fbts and he was wearing white basketball shorts. And Michael was there stoning. Then one of the guys from the basketball game's other team came and asked them to play a 3 on 3. So the guys went and Karen and I sat there and roasted and talked(:
Then when the guys came back, we were like sitting there and Robin suggested Truth or Dare. So we sat in a circle. Started from Karen-Robin-Me-Zhao Xuan-Michael. I think everyone chose truth. Then Karen chose dare, and she was dared to go ask this Caucasian guy if she could take a photo with him. Then she changed to truth. Ahahaha it was super funny. We kept asking really stupid questions. Srsly, I've never met anyone as straightforward as Robin. LOL. But whatever we talked about there shall remain strictly secret. Zhao Xuan had to tell something thoroughly embarrassing. Lol. So we played Truth or Dare until the sun went down.
So after that we got up, brushed the sand off us and started for the toilets. Showered, changed, washed and brushed, we went to Harbourfront. Haha and Karen was taking scary photos of her hair in front of her face. And then we decided to go to Yoshinoya to eat.
Whilst we were eating Michael and Zhao Xuan went off to buy something. Then they took a long while to get ready and enlisted Robin's help. Then finally, the cake came! The birthday song was sung and Karen didn't look really surprised at all. Lol. Yeah and we were supposed to pray for her but not there. So in the end we forgot): Sorry darling. And she made a wish and blew out the candle.
Then when we finished eating, we decided to go and play pool at Pool Fusion but in the end went to Paradiz Centre (something like that)'s Snookerium and played. Played until like 2330. I played with Karen, Robin and Zhao Xuan respectively and Karen and Robin I won, Zhao Xuan thrashed me... Lost by two balls.
Then Karen and Robin sent me home in a cab(:
Oh oh oh and did I tell you? On Sunday after MTT Darryl &the contact group celebrated Esther's and my birthday and we ended up singing the song for not two, not three, not four, but FIVE birthday girls! All in the month of August.(: Esther and I of course, and Karen, Joy and Jasmine!
Haha and I was given a box of Merci chocolates and I gave them all away. Better to give than to receive(:
Saw you again on Sunday.
As I watched you being swallowed by the crowd, as I watched your back disappear into the onslaught of people, I remember every flicker in your eye. Every single emotion in your gaze was bared to me.
That encounter, only lasting probably three seconds, made me think a whole damned lot.
Still, I have no choice but to let you fade into the crowd again. Let you go. As I did once before.
What a complete ass I am.
2:00 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
5.8.06
Currently reading: Sidney Sheldon's Rage of Angels
So like I am starting to REALLY be annoyed with Yang Lao Shi. Somehow, just 'cause she's 3e4's chinese teacher, she thinks she has the right to go yelling at us whenever, wherever she feels like. For example, Take the City Walk. We were right there in the crowd, being happy and all, and she just HAD to come harriedly over, and start yelling. As usual. She kept asking us to move. We were like in twos in our class and she just started telling us to move. Real loud.
Real loud. So that we were forced to cast furtive glances around to make sure no one recognized us before we plunged into the crowd. And somehow she managed to find us AGAIN and start shooting her mouth off AGAIN. And this whole scene was in public! At the Padang! Where anyone could see!
Needless to say, she ruined the whole mood that morning, and our spirits were only restored when we went to see Mrs Zane Tye's adorable little son.
And yesterday, Yang Meh Meh struck again. Ms Caroline was reprimanding the noisy people in her class and she asked me to stay back, and Jane &Co were waiting outside the classroom. And Ms Caroline gave us the worksheets and then continued chiding the students. And we made our way to the hall. Notably late. And when we got there, everyone was sitting down and dear old Safety Pin was addressing the school. Dear me. So we made our way to our class. And found ourselves places to sit.
Everything was going fine until the most annoying MehMeh came and started trying to rearrange our class. She shuffled Susie, ("Xiao Xi! HERE!" and Susie refused to move until MEHMEH's voice reached blasting point) Mel, Jane, Char and I around. And we were like, wah lau, lao shi... And she said, "Who ask you to be late!" and of course, refusing to be misunderstood, we were all, "Ms Chan asked us to stay behind what!" She either pretended not to hear or was shouting too loud to hear.
SIGH. Why must 3e4 have such a horrible fate? Why has the school foisted such a insistingly dominant teacher upon us?
All I can say is, don't blame me if I suddenly lose my cool when she's shouting at us and start shouting at her. I'll prolly go berserk one of these days and do just that.
Lynette: Soooo. What do you want for your birthday!
Me: E*****.
Lynette: ...
-Finito.
9:42 AM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
