I stand in awe amazed at what the cross has done for me
Jesus you stand in the place You died for me
You are the hope of my heart and my soul
This I know

Whenever I need healing Jesus You're always there
Whenever the burden's too heavy to bear
You lift me up
All Heaven declare, Heaven declares

Jesus You are Lord of my life
Your love, Your grace, burn in my heart
Now I am safe under Your wings
Whenever I need You, O Lord

Your mercy never fails, Jesus
Your mercy never fails, Jesus
Your mercy never fails, Jesus
Your mercy never fails


today didnt go svc and strikeforce cos of migraine.
yeah.
tuesday maybe going out with lyn and daniel.
tomorrow shopping with mum.

5:47 PM;

today i woke up at around ten...and cell was at twelve. stupid right.
so rushed down to marsiling...
was only about ten minutes late.
anyways...had cell...sis veron talked about keeping heaven open over us. electrifying sermon.
after the cell..i talked to sis veron about something... then she prayed for me.. sis veron so nice=)


i can see that you really need God in your life... to motivate you..to provide you with the love that you never had from anyone else, to encourage you to love people. i'm trying to reach out to you. but you dont want God. you keep rejecting Him and the love i'm trying to give you. how much longer can you keep this up?

9:54 PM;

today's the last day of school.
was boring again today,
had some talk stuff in the hall.

i brought my sax to school...then no band.
...
feel like screaming.

bad results.

after school, amirah, zenice and me hang out at amphi.
it was raining...so amirah and me go walk in the rain.
i took off my shoes and socks.
haha.
so fun. but didnt get as wet as expected.
good thing?
oh well. was hoping to get sick=(

watching the knob on the fan go round and round and round...

no mood to do anything.

wonder what he'll say.

thanks, daniel.

4:10 PM;

school was boring today.

had a few talks. a video. boring, boring, boring.
toilet.
counselling.
boring, boring, boring.

the beds are here.
taller than expected
but nice=)

iron, iron, iron.

8:26 PM;

i need You now, more than ever.
where are You?

mom and dad ordered new beds for me and bigbro. they're loft beds and they're coming on thursday.
that's an awfully long time=(
the day after tomorrow.
haha. i have watched shark tale. have you? loser.
l o s e r .
and you'll say, 'i didnt wanna watch anyway.'
please; the question's not on whether you wanna watch, but if you can watch, is able to watch.
and you aren't.

haha.
gotta go write testimonial for daniel now.

7:27 PM;

strikeforce was so awesome.

1:36 PM;

i'm bored. i'm gonna type out Ephesians 3:12. This verse saved my life.

Ephesians 3:12
In Him and through faith in Him we may approach God with freedom and confidence.

Psalm 6 (NIV)
1O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in Your wrath.
2Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am faint;
O Lord, heal me, for my bones are in agony,
3My soul is in anguish.
How long, O Lord, how long?
4Turn, O Lord, and deliver me;
save me because of Your unfailing love.
5No one remembers You when he is dead
Who praises You from the grave?
6I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
7My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.
8Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the Lord has heard my weeping.
9The Lord has heard my cry for mercy;
the Lord accepts my prayer.
10All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.

1:59 AM;

this morning my teeth real hurt. so i pon another day=)
around six plus i woke up...then i went back to sleep.
woke up around...eleven thirty.
then ate brunch.
then took a shower and went for cg.
today's message is testing of your faith.
shall type it out=)

Testing of your Faith

Hebrews 11:6
If you don't understand faith, your faith will suffer.
people think if they only have faith, everything will be fine.
BUT the more faith you have, the more obstacles you will face.
Mark 11:24
John 14:14
Delay does not mean a denial.
Acts 1:4
"Do not depart, but wait for me..."
God does not work according to our time. He works according to His own time.
Acts 2:2
"SUDDENLY"
Change can come suddenly.
Hebrews 6:11-12
Of Faith and Patience
Faith+Patience=Promise.
-Trials and testing mature out faith.
John 11:11-15,17,21-24
Only when your faith is tested, you will know how strong your faith is.
-Trials and testing develop patience.
We need to have the patience.
Patience will give us the endurance.
Definition of patience: being constant or being the same at all times.
Maintain composure, calmness, consistence, stability and persistence at all times.
Faith can leak.

Confess:
I keep doing what is right, holding firm to my faith and actively pressing into God in the midst of my difficulties.

I need to have patience.
Testing and Trials=Temptations.
A test is anythign that applies pressure on the desires of the flesh.
Temptations are not sins, acting on the temptations are sins.
Testing and temptation is common to man.
God is faithful. You will never face anything that you can't overcome.
God always provides the way of escape.
In due season, you will reap if you do not lose heart.

Into Your hand
I commit again
With all I am
For You, Lord
You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand
And I am Yours forever

Jesus, I believe in You
Jesus, I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with You
Wherever You go
Through tears and joy
I'll trust in You
And I will live
In all of Your ways
And Your promises, forever.

i'm.loving.Him.
/God is Awesome

7:21 PM;

i got my drum sticks already.
i guess i'm not going to school tomorrow.
crap, my teeth hurt!

i'm so excited for sunday. i can't wait.

Christina Aguilera feat. Missy Elliott
Car Wash
Y'all small tuna fish, I'm one big catch
(This is a Shark Tale exclusive)
Y'all small tuna fish, I'm one big catch
(Here we go again) (2004)
Y'all small tuna fish, I'm one big catch
(Say what, say what) (phenomenal hit)
Y'all small tuna fish, I'm one big catch
(Yeah)
Ooh, do do do do do do do
Car wash, car wash
Ooh, do do do do do do do
Car wash, car wash
(Yeah, let's drop it on 'em like this)
Ooh, do do do do do do, na na na ah, ooh
Ooh, do do do do do do, na na na ah, ooh
You might not ever get rich, ha
Let me tell you it's better than digging a ditch
There ain't no telling who you might meet
A movie star or maybe a common thief
Working at the car wash (oh oh, yeah yeah)
At the car wash, yeah (ooh, yeah yeah)
At the car wash (sing it with me now)
Working at the car wash, yeah(Oh, oh)
Come summer the work gets kind of hard
This ain't no place to be if you're planning on being a star
Let me tell you it's always cool
And the boss don't mind sometimes if you're acting like a fool
Working at the car wash (oh oh, yeah yeah)
At the car wash, yeah (ooh ooh ooh)
At the car wash (ow said, now come and work it with me now, yeah)
Working at the car wash, yeah
Said, said, said, sing(Work and work)
Well those cars never stop coming
(Work and work)
Keep those rags and machines humming
(Work and work)
My fingers to the bone
(Work and work)
Keep on and can't wait till it's time to go home
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Hey, get your car washed today
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Fill up and you don't have to pay
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Hey, get your car washed today
Give it up, right away
Work at the, car wash
Sharks in the water make they jaws lock
When I swim through the grim, I'm too hot
Y'all can make y'all bets
Y'all small tuna fish, I'm one big catch
Shark slayer, bow down playa
'Cause this right here will be your worst nightmare (nightmare)
Work that, work that, pop back, hurt that
Turn this up and bang it all up in the surface
(Work and work)
9 to 5 I gotta keep that fat stack coming
(Work and work) (work it)
No matter how big the shark is, the right keep running
(Work and work)
Washing cars ain't no place to be a superstar man
(Work and work)
That's why I work, and work
Working at the car wash (ohhh, yeah)
At the car wash, yeah (come on work it, baby work it, say now)
At the car wash (ahh)
Working at the car wash, yeah
So come on, come on, come on, come on, come on
Ooh, do do do do do do, na na na ah, ooh
(Now keep it coming)
Ooh, do do do do do do (woo, so), na na na ah, ooh
(You may not ever get rich, but hey)
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Hey, get your car washed today (hey)
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Hey, get your car washed today(Ooh ooh ooh)
Hey, get your car washed today (phenomenal hit)

paradox

11:10 PM;

today i'm going to get drumsticks with big bro.
i skipped school today, and got the braces tightened. changed the colour, too. now it's dark blue.
i like that colour, whether it looks nice or not.
people are entitled to their own opinions.

i finally learnt how to change my blog skin. finally. i dont have to rely on lyn anymore. but thanks anyway, girl.

Phil Collins- Strangers like me
Whatever you do, I'll do it too
Show me everything and tell me how
It all means something
And yet nothing to me
I can see there's so much to learn
It's all so close and yet so far
I see myself as people see me
Oh, I just know there's something bigger out there
I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about the strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me
Every gesture, every move that she makes
Makes me feel like never before
Why do I have
This growing need to be beside her
These emotions I never knew
Of some other world far beyond this place
Beyond the trees, above the clouds
I see before me a new horizon
I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about these strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me
Come with me now to see my world
Where there's beauty beyond your dreams
Can you feel the things I feel
Right now
With you
Take my hand
There's a world
I need to know
I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about these strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me
I wanna know


/strikeforce

3:02 PM;

thanks for helping me with my blog, lyn!
anyways.
erm...
today after school didnt go band because i only knew about it today. today not going band, tomorrow not going school.

i can't believe it! i just got the call from strikeforce.
i'm in!
so excited.
i have to go buy drumsticks. i think i need 5A ones.
i'm going with kor tomorrow.

strikeforce
1730
braddell mrt station
be there.

/strikeforce rawks

6:49 PM;

i'm tired. today i went out with olivia, ryan and edward today. erm. yeah. first we went to...heeren. to take neos. a bit spastic, but yeah, they were okay. okay.
ouch...i think i sprained my right arm.
anyways, after that we went to eat at seoul garden- the table barbecue people.
everyone kept getting burnt by the spattering oil and the soup and stuff. i guess that was the time to put to good use our home econ practical skills.
...
ah well, we got burnt anyway.
but it was fun! yeah, and ryan and olivia had an eating contest and me and ryan had a burping contest. haha. pretty lame i know. but i won..! i think. anyway, after eating, we were all very full, needless to say. and so, we had some...leftover food.
$5 to every 100g.
so, we hid almost all the food in the boiling soup until we had less than 100g of display food left. haha. then, we ran.
spastic.
erm. yeah. after that, olivia, edward, ryan and me went to cineleisure. me and olivia went to e games interactive! and ryan and edward went to play LAN.
i really wanted to play, but oh well. i can always play at home.
erm.
so after that, olivia and i went to watch white chicks. and this is the...how manyeth time i watched it?
anyway. after that we went home. ahem. end of story.
i'm sleepy.

11:10 PM;

for the whole day, i've been watching tv and nothing much else. if i could just play the damn sims2, i wouldnt be complaining over here right now, but i am. so there.
this morning i was sleeping when my brother sean ko junren had to make so much noise getting ready for school and everything that i woke up. i mean, come on. it wasnt even nine yet! it was eight thirty-eight. of course i was grumpy! duh! anyways, back to the beautiful STILLNESS of the morning. yeah, i was there in bed, not doing anything but sleeping, when i was awakened by the crack of dawn.
...
ohkae. not really. but there was a loud noise of a drawer slamming shut.
cant he just slide them shut like everyone else?
anyway. so i grumbled and stuffed my pillow over my face to block out the sunlight streaming in through the window. again, i must stress that it wasn't even nine yet! sunlight before nine is a crime on non-school and church days!
erm. back to the point. so i went back to sleep. when i woke up again, or, rather, i was WOKEN UP again by mom A.K.A. super villain of all time. it was eleven twenty-three. and she'd opened the windows!
i mean, who likes sunlight, bright sunlight, in their face when they havent properly woken up yet?
ohkae.
so there i was, grumbling about the sunlight, being woken up, and generally being quite grouchy, when mom had to mention the touchy subject.
how was i doing in the sims 2?
mom!!! i havent even started playing properly yet because of the way the pathetic thing stalls on the computer about sixty seconds into the game!
so, i started throwing a tantrum the way i havent been doing since i was about five, and needless to say, it didnt have quite the same effect.
hey, but i was mad at being woken up twice in a row. of course i lost my temper.
duh.
i'm bored blogging. i dont wanna type anymore. guess it's time to go watch tv again.

/God is Awesome

8:27 PM;

hey.
i'm bored. there's a blister somewhere on the left side of my mouth, and it hurts a lot. stupid braces.
stupid comp. hanged on me twice.
today applied for strikeforce...really hope can get in. it rawks. totally.

strikeforce rawks.

8:57 PM;

last paper was today.
finally.
free.

today's also shao qi's bd. happy birthday, bro.

anyways. after school went straight home..then got called out again.
today went to lido with lyn, crv, daniel huang, greg. watched a movie called...what.? sky captain and the world of tomorrow or something. it was so. boring. before the movie, we went to taka to eat. rather, greg, crv and daniel wanted to eat. yoshi.
later, wanted to take neos but heeren lots of ppls...
erm.

after that,went to clement's house for combined cell. celebrated shao qi's bd. watched sI.

after that was really tired...oh well.

getting sims 2 tmr.

haha! who's the loser now.?!

4:27 PM;

okay. i just decided to get an iPod instead of the mp3 blue. why? well, i dont really know. and furthermore, it's so expensive. mom'll kill me. at least she's cool with the iPod.
yes, an iPod, not an iPod mini. i wanna get the 20GB one. 5,000 songs is good. erm.
yeps.
today was the lit paper, and every bit as hard as i thought it'd be. but how to study for lit. actually it's pointless calling mr tseng all sorts of names, like it or not, the paper is the set paper and you have to do it. so what if you hate him? like he cares. come on, get a life, and spare us all.
/slash

6:06 PM;

friend-stealer. i'm not that desperate. tsk. guo liqun is just so desperate for friends that she has to steal other people's friends. so sad. think i will die w/o you? please, someone fetch me a basin. *loud retching noise*
i'm not like some people, want to insult do it behind people's backs. that's called BACKSTABBING, and i'm not a backstabber like you. so don't worry. plus, i don't even want to and i won't bother posting stuff like that on here. i can post stuff so bad that it'll make even you, with your ten inch thick skin and skull, cry.
i can.
but i wont.
cause i know you most probably won't read it, and if you don't, there's no point, that'll be called backstabbing. listen and learn, girlie.

oh, whatever.
no. but i'm just the best!
oh, yeah?
you think your problems are more important than mine besides your obvious attitude problem.
well, yeah.
that was a statement, not a question-
shut up!
you shut up, i'm talking.*winks at amanda*anyways, let's review. who knew miss tan more first?
me.
yep. and who got the encouragement card from her first?
you.
mmm. thank you.
and who got the scolding and interrogation?
me.
congratulations, then. i win.

i dont need to backstab, i dont need you. think again, girlie. apparently you need God in your life.

6:12 PM;

today sian lorh. miss ang change our place cos we not having exam for one week... yeah then she go put us sit beside people.. i sit beside jasmine..then she say cannot change...miss ang tisnt as understanding as before... i think tonight i will post a long one...i want to try until ten then i go sleep then wake at three and do work.
kae...
i dunno why lorh. but just now brother very what lorh. i know i cannot be too greedy but still... he promised to buy me the sims 2 for my birthday present... then he said after exam then buy... ok lorh...then i wait...then now he tell me after i get my results then buy. he will tuo until when? this is so unfair lorh... when he told me he will buy for me sims 2 i so happy... then now i dunno when he will buy. make me happy for nothing, especially as what i need is to be happy these days.
and he promised.
he promised.
then is like after quarreling with him i cry.
i know i'm not reasonable at all... and i also dont know why i cry... i'm so depressed and i dont have anyone to talk to...i cant even post what i really feel on this blog cause it's so public and everyone will see... and my feelings...i really have to tell someone...but who? i know what people will say. the people in church will tell me to talk to God.
but even though i know i can talk to God, i somehow feel that He's got more important things to do than deal with my problems. after all, He's God. He wont have time for me. and if He isnt there for me, no one else is.
i called my kor just now.. jeremy...then i talked to him... and he was telling me to relax and everything... i really dont want to tell him this...but all his methods dont work... they only make me feel worse...then i cried on the phone...mom came into the room..and she went out... then i yelled for her to close the door...and i said please... but then she bu shuang... come in dunno what crap 'even though you not in good mood you cant take it out on me' dunno what thing... i couldnt take it anymore. something inside me snapped. i just shouted at her to get out and then lay down on my bed and wept. surprisingly, she didnt shout at me, just turned and went out.
when i walked past her room just now, she was talking to my brother normally. she looked as if nothing had happened. i just wish, sometimes, i could scream at her and hit her the way she did to me when i was little. i just wish that i could make her feel some of the pain she gave me.
it's not fair. oh, i the world's unfair, i know, i know. but why isnt it EVER unfair in my favour? it's so unfair and always in the favour of others. never me.
i'm such a loser. if i ever live to be all grown up, i'm gonna write the much-needed books,'the 1001 ways to feel like a loser' and 'the ideal loser's will'. yep. one of these days i'll write my will, and in it i'll include 'the ultimate suicidist's guide for dummies'.

9:36 PM;

fish.
why did we have to change cell groups? it's so unfair. now in w299.
this bites.
i have to be in different cells from so many people. so its not always a pie in the sky in the sweet by-and-by.
especially...
never mind. i have cookies.
haha.

Five for fighting- Something about you
(it's been a long time coming)
(it's been a long time coming)
(it's been a long time coming)
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
I don't know where to dig in.
I don't know how to get in there to feel you
It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and
I'm in time
I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that.
(it's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process.
(it's been a long time coming)
It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and
I'm in time
I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
It's been a long time coming
I'm going to hold on to that

9:27 PM;

RAH-RAH (:

. strikeforcer!
. cheerleader: flyer
. christian
. harvester
. 120891

thin is beautiful(?).
Love-Hate Relationship
with High Heels.




OH PUH-LEAAAASE DADDYKINS?

to walk by God's side; always.
and you.


MATERIAL
a drumset
iRiver H10 Triple Platinum
a nokia with a bloody memory card
you know, it would be so romantic to receive blue roses from some guy everytime i see him.(:
CHEERLEADING SHOES!
a perm.
dark coloured cargos; SnK/BUM?
new jeans
plain, brightly coloured sports bras
ooh! glitter mascara(:
loreal's panoramic curl black mascara
shu uemura eyelash curler
hiphuggers from victoria's secret
Victoria's Secret PINK collection racerbacks
VS Signature Graphic Print Sleepshirt from victoria's secret

READS!<3
The Devil wears Prada; Lauren Weisberger [S$16.95
The autobiography of Paris Hilton; Paris Hilton

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