30.1.06
"i am sick, sick,
sick of you. and when i'm not sick, i'm tired. i am sick and tired!"
-quoted from Ruby in Monster-In-Law.
okay.
now you get your facts right. when you've accused us, slandered us, whatever. see how bloody wrong you were? i hope you do, because i am not wasting any more time or effort trying to make you.
11:04 AM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
29.1.06
11:36 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
17.1.06
whew, just the start of the year and i'm already getting myself mixed in all these things. i really should go do something about it...
bitch, i think we should drop the act. i really, really think we should. look at the alarming amount of people that think we're together already.. what i mean to say is, we aren't involved with each other. and we shouldn't let people think that way, no. not when we both like other people. do you know what i mean? i don't know about you, but i do like someone else. and that someone else has the wrong idea about both of us. and that's
really disturbing me. and i'm wondering if its disturbing you too, but i don't know how to say it without being blunt. i mean, look at the way i'm talking now. i never was subtle, was i? but i think i was being selfish. it was always i, i, i, and no one else but me.
i honestly don't know how to continue from here, how to convey the message to the some dozen people that think we're a couple, that we're
not. i may have gotten an a1 for my english, but i have zero conveying skills. i have no idea how to say this. we can remain close, but somehow, we shouldn't be as close as we were before. i think i was getting too comfortable. and that can sometimes pose problems. pastor always talks about stepping out of our comfort zone, and that's what we ought to do. things won't change, things never do. but in the end, it won't remain like this forever. some people's priorities are their own comfort, and i was one of those people. but those people never consider others' feelings, and sometimes priorities have to be set straight.
i know we used to be together. but that was several months ago, and we broke up because both of us were only thinking about ourselves, and, at the time, i didn't feel it was a very big loss to you, because you sure didn't act like it. i still don't feel that way. but it
is wrong, at least to me, to be so ...together, when we both know it's all an act. we have to remember that we are both individuals, and we should remain that way.
2:51 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
15.1.06
hi.(: today there's no pract. happy.(: for once! dont get me wrong, i love strikeforce and strikeforcers and strikeforce-ing.. but it's just so tiring. i WILL go and sleep after this post.
okay. so this morning i woke up at 0730. -_- overslept like half an hour. then got ready and went down to expo.
hey i reached like pretty early. 0845 or something like that. man! advantage of staying in the central area.(: then had service. after service called cheryl and met her up. went to b.s. together. hahahaha we saw her ai-ai! then found howard. saw wesley and huang peng and the bitch.(: and bro david and kangwei and a LOT of people lah.(:
and then had b.s. very sleepy! but it was interesting. then after that met up with karen, cheryl, esmond, and my bitch. went to the foyer 2 and saw sis jennifer, sis irenaus, yiling, rallen, sis shirley, and a lot of other people doing up heidi's gifts. adorable, adorable heidi.(: i can't believe she's one already! so quickly, haha.
and lets see. after that, we like just hung around for awhile and then left. cheryl went with her members, esmond went with karen, and my bitch sent me home!(: we took funny photos on the train to changi airport. x) and i like the photo i took with jaanmeng. we look so angelic!(: okay. then reached the lift. took up and took down again. 16-2 2-16. heh. ok lah only once. haha. and then he left. aww.. (: end of day. i'm going to BED! night.
7:54 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
14.1.06
this marks the end of the second week of school, and i declare myself officially exhausted. these past two weeks, the routine has been:
wake up 0600,
go to school 0630-0740,
school 0740-1400,
stay in school 1400-1500,
go to the p.a. for helping out with the tower (sometimes) 1500-1930,
chingay practice 1930-2230,
reach home at 2300,
sleep at 0000 and repeat.
as you can see, i only can sleep roughly six hours everyday and i am exhausted! thank God for no cg this week, i am really very tired and need to sleep as much as i can to rejuvenate! (: so i happily slept from 0120 this morning to 1100! finally, my first good sleep in like, the whole year, so far. heh.(:
shucks, i still feel sleepy now. lol. okay. lets see. my days have been quite mundane so far, but i really love chingay practice. i've been seeing strikeforcers nearly everyday and that always, always cheers me up. and.. yes. sis jennifer talked to me about some things. haha. i feel so, too. too close to be normal. honey, don't you think so? i think we can drop the act already.
hmmm. yes. the chingay is on the third of february. must watch!
yesterday, like only four people from my sector came. sean, sheila, jocelyn and i. and they were all positioned behind me, and i was like the only one in front... roflmao. okay. then.. yeah. every practice seems so short, but in actual fact they're nearly three, four hours. i say, time flies when you're having fun. heh.
thanks for listening on that night when i was so frustrated. i really needed it. i never knew you could be so... tender.
11:34 AM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
4.1.06
okay. like school is officially boring me out. i mean, what's the deal with the nose stud? and the stick in my nose? like it's a transparent stick. you can't even see it if you don't look that close for goodness' sake. WAH LAU! damn all teachers who ask me to take out my nose-stick/stud. *mutters darkly*):
but overall, school's really boring. although we
did get a really nice form teacher. mr malik. and we don't have a co-form teacher like so many other classes. heh... i wonder why.(: and.. now school starts at 0740 instead of 0725 or something to that effect.
i think they are trying to get people not to be late. haha. but in the end today i was still pretty late. woke up at 0713!!!!!!!!! *&$^#%^# anyway i was a few minutes late only. cabbed to school.(: mom paid. anw.. yeah. so then had p.e.. took height and weight wth i gained like 3 kg! ))))))))): now my weight is 45. damn heavy! and my height is 153. i think i grew like 1 cm. (: LYNETTE IS STILL SHORTER THAN ME. hahaha.. and she's like 44. shit i am FAT NOW! i have to go on a carb diet immediately! okay. haha. then run 2 rounds around the school. was supposed to run with lynette but she pangsehed me. then never mind.. ran with yu qi. i really ran ok! (: until i cannot take it. then i like walk a few steps then run again. after that got stomachache and gary lim wanted us to do crunches, burpees, stretching. well it cleared up. wow. haha. so amazing. then.. went to class.
geography lesson. like today i brought a hell load of books lah! lol. geography, english, mathematics, physics, mother tongue.. all so thick! except cl lah.heh. wth! then.. left everything under the table. shit! got math homework! 2nd day and there's home work.. whatever. okay. then ms chan didn't come so there's a relief teacher. it's that robin hood again lah. heh. we were like talking to him and buying books during his lesson. he stays near me. and he has an electronic drumset at home with double kick! &^$#@$#* he bought it for 2k and is selling it for S$800; so now you know. haha. and penny, mel, shufei and i went to bookshop to buy books. suddenly my mom came to the bookshop lah! mel was like, hey hi and i turned around and is my MOM. like LOL! ok. then bought books. and.. yeah. went back to class. then after awhile was english. chris tan asked me to take out my nose stick. wth! so i just took out. then after that put back.
then recess. hung out with amirah, arthur mariam they all. haha. didn't eat.
oh no! today's wednesday i have TUITION! update more later. i have to go. it started at seven thirty.
6:13 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
