29.4.06
since wednesday. since wednesday i haven't seen you, haven't properly spoken to you-
since wednesday i have been pining for you.
every time i flip my phone open, i see your face. there's no way to explain the onslaught of emotion that clenches my heart every time i think about you. and when that happens, there's no way to fight how my heart leaps into my throat, so much that i nearly choke on it. how i can't think straight every second you're near me. how i'm so heartsick for you.
i dash the tears out of my eyes, reminding myself forcibly of the promise i made to you, how i wouldn't cry.
how many tears can be cried over one person?
i close my eyes, and i see in my mind's eye two people fused at the lips, bathed in light from a street lamp.
we never were subtle, were we?
9:30 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
my mom has high blood pressure, my dad's a diabetic.
so, when they had me, they found out i was a thalassemic. minor, mind you. and, well, it didn't affect me much. just that during p.e. in school, i found myself tiring easily. more easily than other people about my size. how was that possible? i told my parents, and they said it was because i was unhealthy. okay. who can argue with logic like that? but the time finally came when they told me i was a thalassemic. i have the less severe thalassemia. but all the same, it still affects.
when i heard the testimony by the thalassemic major, i felt a jolt in the heart region.
that could've been me,
she could've been me. i could've been that girl standing there, i could have very well been the one needing monthly or even weekly blood transfusions- i could've been one to die from thalassemia so severe it devoured red blood cells.
but i wasn't.
8:48 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
27.4.06
okay now i'm in sp's comp lab using the computer. : D we having a lesson using the computers today.
yesterday was awesome! loved the practice. i flew a lot. and i had to train the bases and everything. my bases for the moment are junxiong and handy. or something like that. my backspot's nicholas. and yeah. okay. so yesterday was fun! supposed to show bro victor. but didn't. haha. and yup. did some mass dance. had a lot of changes! but the girls' dance is awesome. really sexy. yup.
edited at 10:38 p.m.
oh, a reminder to all p.o.s. people. always, always do your stretching properly- or you'll prolly end up like me. the whole day my upper arms have been aching because i didnt do my arm stretching properly and now they hurt like don't-know-what.): i'm a flyer, fyi.
3:43 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
25.4.06
they shouted, "crucify"
as he struggled on the road
weight of the world, all the pain,
the cross became his load.
he was innocent, yet accused and blamed.
sent to save a fallen world, to bear all our shame.
they shouted, "crucify"
as he struggled on the road.
weight of the world, all the pain,
the cross became his load.
he was innocent, yet accused and blamed.
sent to save a fallen world to bear all our shame.
this is your saviour, pure love of heaven.
sent to die on calvary to bear the sins of all.
rejected, cursed to die,
love silently endured.
his blood poured out an offering at the foot of the cross.
they put a crown of thorns upon his bleeding head.
whipped him as he struggled on, he uttered not a word.
he was innocent, yet accused and blamed.
sent to save a fallen world to bear all our shame.
this is your saviour, pure love of heaven.
sent to die on calvary to bear the sins of all.
rejected, cursed to die,
love silently endured.
his blood poured out an offering at the foot of the cross.
for the broken hearted
for the poor, the weak,
for the blind and searching,
he shed his blood for you and me.
this is your saviour, pure love of heaven.
sent to die on calvary to bear the sins of all.
rejected, cursed to die
love silently endured,
his blood poured out an offering at the foot of the cross.
12:10 AM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
14.4.06
this past one and a half month has been really magical for me.
with you, and all.
so now, apart for two years we have to be.
hurts as it does to have myself distanced from you, i know this is something that has to be done.
and you know it too, don't you? it means you mean something to me.
and you know i won't be able to stop thinking about today. every time i see you, i'll remember everything we did, every word we said, every promise we made.
i'll miss you so much. and i have the marks to remember you by, and the photos. i'll try not to reminiscence so much, though.
see you in two years;
and i'll be missing you till then.
6:56 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
8.4.06
hey everybody!
GUESS WHAT? I GOT MY MUCH ANTICIPATED PINK V3! yay.(: it feels so good to be able to strike the "a new phone" off my wishlist. sigh.
oh before i forget, my M card number is 93497137. i'll be using that phone mainly for sms, don't call that phone. and my 81134065 line is still in use, don't delete that number. all right, okay, i'm gonna make this clear:
93497137: for sms only. dont call.
81134065: for calls and sms, both.
it's not a gurantee that i'll have both my phones with me always, but my 81134065 will be with me all the time. so you know what to do.(:
7:48 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
3.4.06
okay, i just wanna say two very important things.
1) i hope this one will encourage you. tonight during tuition, i suddenly got a very sharp pain in the back of my head, just behind my left ear. yuqi, upon hearing about it, put her thumb on the spot, and her other hand's palm on my forehead and said, "get well, in the name of Jesus!" with such conviction. and the pain instaneously disappeared. without a trace. PRAISE THE LORD!
2) _ _ _ _ _ _, i am very, very sorry for what happened. really. i have no idea how to emphasize how sorry i am, and i know you know i'm sorry, but i just want to apologise.
with all my heart,
<3 rahhx.
10:50 PM;
Suga suga, how you get so fly?
