hmmm...here's an extract from my bro's blog that i completely agree with!


Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Don't you ever get the feeling that sometimes you become a trouble magnet? Problem after problem starts rolling into your life with no end? I guess sometimes I feel that way. But the truth being that these problems more than often involve the people that I care about (family/friends etc.). And this is also why it hurts the most. God says, you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind, soul, strength, intellect. And shall also love your neighbor as yourself. Wo.....Those are real challenges. But if we don't do these things, then who will? Many say that life is unfair to them. Then is it fair that a mom has to carry her child for 9 months or less and then bare the pains of labor and forego work just to bring up the child only to find later that the son/daughter couldnt even care less? Or that Jesus had to die for the sins that He didn't even commit. And is despised by the very people that He died for? All these things aren't fair. But it was done to make a difference in someone's life. See the truth is this. No matter how much you try to love people and be yourself, some of them will still despise you. But despite this, chosing to continualy show concern to others in spite of the way they treat you will still open the door for a even greater miracle.

8:42 PM;

today met lyn and daniel at macs at twelve, then went to town.
first bought tickets.. then ate at lido. then went into the movie. it was the incredibles. watched it so many times. but never mind lorh. just go with them. i very extra right=)
then during the movie did lots of stupid stuff... yeah and after that went to heeren to take neos... stuck some in the neoprint book. and featured was LYN AND DANIEL. i decorate until very nice.. haha. put hearts everywhere and wrote LOVE there...then no time! just as i was drawing the last heart! not fair right. hmmm...after that walked around heeren then went to 77th street and i bought a tee. a BLACK tee. a billabong one. hmmm...after that...we went home. yeah.
...i owe daniel a lot of money.

THE ROCKERS

6:25 PM;

hmmm...hi. just reached home from church. it's... twelve forty nine. i'm going to write out all the sermon notes...which will take a really long time because there are about five or six pages. btw, it's on the general topic How Shall We Live.

take me deeper
deeper in love with you
Jesus hold me close in your embrace
take me deeper
deeper than i've ever been before
i just want to love You more and more
how i long
to be deeper in love


matthew 7:13-14
christians= followers/people of the way.
way- narrow.
~narrow= you know how to walk in righteousness.
R=legalism.

1:49 AM;

___________she wants either all or nothing
________and remains tangled in the chains of desire.


i'm bored...
later i'm going for a seminar in church on how shall we live ...
i found the yearbook! yay.
cool. just found an anti-sly FC.
i'm gonna join it.

xiaomeimei=XdoubleM

10:40 AM;

i forgot to blog about the other day that i went back to gillman. so damn boring lorh. i didnt know most of the people there, and the ones i know acted like they were angry with me or something. hardly talked to me. hell. i went back just to see them lorh. not for the stupid function. i tried to talk to them but they were so busy with their cell group members. and totally ignored me. fine. is this what their church teaches? to ignore people? fine. i wont say which church it is. call yourself a charismatic christian.
lets talk about happier things. i found out jolene's stead's name. and her another eyecandy's blog.
=)


i am the ultimate XdoubleM of all time

11:51 PM;

today woke up and found that i overslept a bit. okay, not a bit, half an hour! anyway took a quick shower and then woke kor up...and we got a lift to queenstown. yup...service was really anointing today...i'll type sermon notes out.

mark 10:46-52
How to connect with God?
I must have faith.
7 steps of faith.
1. Desire.
Worse than physical blindness (blind Bartaemius): a man w/o a dream or vision.
vision=hope
Romans 15:13
Hope gives patience and positive things/thoughts.
Be specific and know what you desire.
Everything starts with a desire.
2. Decision
A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.
God doesnt want your head, He wants your heart.
3. Asking (praying)
Luke 18
Faith is an attitude.
4. Receiving
Mark 11:23, 24
Faith takes you to God's position.
5. Speaking (confessing)
Believe!
confession= homologeo (Greek.)
The Power Of Faith Confession
6. Seeing
7. Acting
-act on it!
Mark 10:49-52

erm...after service went to have lunch then went to victor's condo at bukit gombak for erm...interaction? and bbq. yup..only stayed for a little while. the games were ok...there was musical chairs and...this game called squeeze you/me dry where you have to wring this wet cloth until the last person who cant get any water out. then the game ends. first the brothers played...then the sisters...we were very friendly. CHC Sisterhood=) anyways...chee wai won. so weird.. lol. because he came in at the end and squeezed most of the remaining water out. haha... lame. anyway...after that went to eat a bit and then left for strikeforce. today was at people's association near kallang mrt, its a bigger space anyway. guess what, we're participating in the christmas event at orchard. daniel, are you participating? anyways we learnt new rhythms today...one's called 16 beat and the other one is called space jam=) we were split up into two groups...one for the chingay and the other for the christmas parade. erm...yup. anyway, after strikeforce, victor, edmund, bryant and me went to macs to have dinner/supper. yup... i went home first cos mom and dad came fetch me=( not fair. mom was like, i give you ten minutes. then in less than 5 minutes she called me again. then cos i was buying drinks with bryant..i was like, i'm gonna get whiny. yeah anyway...end of day. my shoulders ache. the end!

11:37 PM;

Boy you’re so hard to believe
Boy you’re so hard to believe
[Verse 1:]
Just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I ain’t got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just a girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you
[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is okay
But oh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love
[Verse 2:]
In my dreams I see us both together constantly
Why can’t you see
This love that’s here for you inside of me
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me it’s just friendship
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you
[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is okay
But oh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love
[Bridge:]
What do you see in her
You don’t see in me (don’t see in me)
Boy you’re so hard to believe
Why do you show her love
But there’s none for me
Boy you don’t make sense to me
Cause I don’t have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you
[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is okay (everything ain’t okay)
But oh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
(so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love
Boy you’re so hard to believe

10:04 PM;

hmmm...just came back from fetching kor home from the hospital...finally he's discharged...good. but he has to rest until 25 nov. gonna miss lots of school.
today i went out with olivia and jolene.. to town. first me and jolene went to tiong macs to have breakfast. called olivia but she had something on. so went to great world. bought black op slippers=) then waited for olivia, then took shuttle to orchard. after that went to heeren. walked around for awhile then went to take neos. nice=)
then went to cine to have lunch. ate at pastamania. not really hungry so didnt eat much. after that went places. mm...went home after that. jolene was like asking us not to go home...lol.
mm...when i reach home just nice dad also reached...then we took kor's clothes and went to pick him up... then we came home.
i've changed my skin from the welcome to my life one...actually the only things i liked about that skin is the black background and the song...but the stupid song keep stalling ...fine! and bryant said cannot see...so i changed my skin to this one... and also changed my tagboard to cbox. okay... the end!

CONSTANT BUFFERING SUCKS.

6:38 PM;

mm...today stayed in the hospital for quite long. went to clementi to meet ppl first then went over to hospital. erm...stayed there and crapped with big bro for about five straight hours...didnt eat breakfast or lunch...just cookies=)
mm...yeah.
mm...then after that stayed there somemore...bored la...crapping again...practically my whole day was spent at the hospital... now i know how kor kor feels...its boring...stare at the wall, the wall stare back... boring la.
tomorrow i'm going out with olivia they all...jolene...mm. i managed to convince mom to let me buy the black op slippers!

8:38 PM;

hey, it's me again.
you must be wondering why i'm home so early on a sunday. well, today there's no strikeforce prac. dunno why either. erm...but there's prac on tues seven thirty p.m. at chinese church.
today we had a really great service at the indoor stadium...whole place was really jam packed; about 10,000 ppl. i went for both last night and this morning's services. last night pst ulf preached on your calling and this morning was the sequel, your anointing. both sermons were really powerful.
last night i got home around one plus. someone had to cancel at 11:59 p.m. then slept...had to wake up at six you see.
just now i would have stayed for the carnival, but nothing to do...went pastamania with the other two strikeforce members from my cg. so full. i'm so sleepy...
...edmund said bryant is "damned sexy".
...
I.love.City.Harvest.Church.

4:36 PM;

steven curtis chapman- fingerprints of God

I can see the tears filling your eyes
And I know where they’re coming from
They’re coming from a heart that’s broken in two
By what you don’t see
The person in the mirror
Doesn’t look like the magazine
Oh but when I look at you it’s clear to me that
I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know it’s true
You’re a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you’re covered with the fingerprints of God
Never has there been and never again
Will there be another you
Fashioned by God’s hand
And perfectly planned
To be just who you are
And what he’s been creating
Since the first beat of your heart
Is a living breathing priceless work of art and
Just look at you
You’re a wonder in the making
Oh and God’s not through no
In fact he’s just getting started and
I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know it’s true
You’re a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you’re covered with the fingerprints of God

5:41 PM;

That night, the moon shone down into the Gryffindor dorms, illuminating Ginny as she knelt by her bed. The soft light seemed to smooth out the scars, old, new, and still healing, as she folded her hands together and began to pray. She no longer lay broken at the feet of an unfeeling God. She looked up into the moon, to see whatever God there was, to see His face. She looked up, and saw.

And He was smiling down.

11:39 PM;

its 12 plus a.m. and i'm posting. oh well, i guess it's technically tenth november so i'll just leave the date. hmmm. i'm bored... hungry. later i'm going to do...bookmarks? i think... with the cg...mm.
yeah.
i'm tired...but not sleepy. some people cant tell the difference...i mean... there is a difference. tired means physical exhaustion, but doesnt necessarily mean sleepiness. sleepiness is wanting to sleep...tiredness is wanting to rest.
boing boing.
i cant jump up and down -duh, up and down. what, do you jump sideways?- on my bed anymore so i have to virtually jump here.
fine. i'm bored.

i hate it when she complains. she thinks she's so deprived of everything when she has everything someone else wants and she's not happy with it. and she has all she wants already but doesnt know it. maybe i should tell her. but wait. she'll just tell me i'm wrong. that's right, i remember now.
i've told her before.
she doesnt know, know what it's like to be me. to be shouted at and complained at. to be pushed around, kicked around, bossed around like some kind of animal. animals have feelings too, they have rights too. but i dont. and no ones there to save me. no, you dont know whats it like. no one ever lied straight to your face or stabbed you in the back, like you did to me. no one ever ignored you even when you cried. in your moments of pain, people lingered around you, comforting and consoling.
no one ever did that for me. you dont know whats it like. youre pampered, protected, shielded from the horrors of the world. everyone always gave you what you wanted, you never had to work it was always there.
would it kill you if you just gave one thing up? life has given you everything you've ever wanted. i've been observing your wishlist. it's getting shorter and shorter, and soon it'll disappear completely.
you call yourself a princess. your name means image, or idol. my name means princess. and you're the one whos treated practically like a god. so, explain how this is fair.

GameSHOUT Radio!
paper mario.
"it's great on the game cube." quoted from SexyJosh on GameSHOUT Radio.

1:54 AM;

breaking benjamin- blow me away
halo 2 soundtrack
[Verse 1:]
They fall in line
One at a time
Ready to play
(I can't see them anyway)
No time to lose
We've got to move
Steady the helm
(I am losing sight again)
[Bridge:]
Fire your guns
It's time to roll
Blow me away
(I will stay, unless I may)
After the fall
We'll shake it off
Show me the way
[Chorus:]
Only the strongest will survive
Lead me to heaven, will we die
I am the shadow on the wall
I'll be the one to save us all
[Verse 2:]
There's nothing left
So save your breath
Lying awake
(Caught inside this tidal wave)
Your cover's blown
No where to go
Holding your fate
(Loaded I will walk alone)
[Bridge:]
Fire your guns
It's time to roll
Blow me away
(I will stay, unless I may)
After the fall
We'll shake it off
Show me the way
[Chorus:]
Only the strongest will survive
Lead me to heaven, will we die
I am the shadow on the wall
I'll be the one to save us all
Wanted it back
(Don't fight me now)
Only the strongest will survive
Lead me to heaven, will we die
I am the shadow on the wall
I'll be the one to save us all
Save us all

1:45 PM;

hmmm. very tired. today was very busy. in the morning had to reach church riviera by 0815 for briefing for stationmasters for the telematch. yeah. then after service, had to go get stuff for my station at S11, Taman Jurong. chopsticks, chilli sauce and bitter tea. kay... all the participants and stationmasters met 1230 at riviera and the masters were released first. so...the game was played and whatsoever...blah...blah...blah... at six, we had to meet at lau pa sat. then i had to go for strikeforce. reached there around seven plus. really late. we learned a new rhythm. after that, edmund wanted to wait for bryant so yeah waited and then went to macs to wait instead. mmm...fellowshipped... had dinner... then when victor and bryant arrived, we waited a while and then had to leave...took mrt to orchard and were picked up from there. yeah.
overall an interesting day... quite interesting, especially watching the groups wolfing down the laksa with extra chilli and turning red in the face, then forcing down the bitter tea and turning purple.
...okay, not literally, but you get the idea.
yeah.
highlight of the day: bigbro allowed me to wear his _untouchable_ black Unleash your Experience tee!

tomorrow...i'm highlighting my hair.

7:46 PM;

just came back from orchard with lyn and daniel. so early! they had dance.
first met at city hall. *they were on the same train. so romantic!*
then took train to orchard. movie at 1130 so walked around first. went to taka cos lyn wanted to buy birthday present for her mom. then by the time we got to the movie was like 1145.
the movie name cellular. think its a thriller. so exciting. lyn said she wanted to sleep. lol. chris evans!!
...anyways...
after the movie went to take neos. met studio d people doing stomp! at heeren. (william's so tall...)
yeah. after that lyn and daniel had dance, so they took cab together to school. *romantic sia!* i suan them=) haha.
gotta blast.

3:25 PM;

my brotha, my playa, the shark slayer.

no. i cant believe what i'm seeing.
why does no one trust me? what did i do to you?
i didnt lie. i just didnt tell you cos i didnt want you to be mad at me, i just wanted to you to be happy. because you were first, you told me first when i didnt know, you told me. you told me first, and i couldnt help but want it, too.
i just wanted you to get what you wanted, to be happy. was that so wrong? i'm sorry if it was. i'm sorry, i really am. but not everyone gets everything they want, it's not just you. you've got more than me. you have no idea how much more.
i tried, i tried to keep it from you. but you still found out.
i'm the nobody that no one cares about. but you, you're the somebody that everybody cares about. i'm insignificant.

Get It Together
One shot to your heart without breaking your skin
No one has the power to hurt you like your kin
Kept it inside, didn't tell no one else
Didn't even wanna admit it to yourself
And now your chest burns and your back aches
From 15 years of holding the pain
And now you only have yourself to blame
If you continue to live this way
Get it together
You wanna heal your body
You have to heal your heart
Whatsoever you sow you will reap
Get it together
You can fly fly
Dark future ahead of me
That's what they say
I'd be starving if I ate all the lies they fed
Cause I've been redeemed from your anguish and pain
A miracle child I'm floating on a cloud
Cause the words that come from your mouth
You're the first to hear
Speak words of beauty and you will be there
No matter what anybody says
What matters most is what you think of yourself
The choice is yours
No matter what it is
To choose life is to choose to forgive
You don't have to try
To hurt him and break his pride
To shake that weight off
And you will be ready to fly
One shot to your heart without breaking your skin
No one has the power to hurt you like your friends
Thought it will never change but this time moved on
That ugly duckling grew up to be a swan
And now your chest burns and your back aches
Because now the years are showing up on your face
But you'll never be happy
And you'll never be whole
Until you see the beauty in growing old
[Chorus]

cheers. bigbro's downloading the princess diaries 2: royal engagement the movie now. i'll get to watch it, again, earlier than you. loser.

5:59 PM;

RAH-RAH (:

. strikeforcer!
. cheerleader: flyer
. christian
. harvester
. 120891

thin is beautiful(?).
Love-Hate Relationship
with High Heels.




OH PUH-LEAAAASE DADDYKINS?

to walk by God's side; always.
and you.


MATERIAL
a drumset
iRiver H10 Triple Platinum
a nokia with a bloody memory card
you know, it would be so romantic to receive blue roses from some guy everytime i see him.(:
CHEERLEADING SHOES!
a perm.
dark coloured cargos; SnK/BUM?
new jeans
plain, brightly coloured sports bras
ooh! glitter mascara(:
loreal's panoramic curl black mascara
shu uemura eyelash curler
hiphuggers from victoria's secret
Victoria's Secret PINK collection racerbacks
VS Signature Graphic Print Sleepshirt from victoria's secret

READS!<3
The Devil wears Prada; Lauren Weisberger [S$16.95
The autobiography of Paris Hilton; Paris Hilton

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