whew, just the start of the year and i'm already getting myself mixed in all these things. i really should go do something about it...
bitch, i think we should drop the act. i really, really think we should. look at the alarming amount of people that think we're together already.. what i mean to say is, we aren't involved with each other. and we shouldn't let people think that way, no. not when we both like other people. do you know what i mean? i don't know about you, but i do like someone else. and that someone else has the wrong idea about both of us. and that's
really disturbing me. and i'm wondering if its disturbing you too, but i don't know how to say it without being blunt. i mean, look at the way i'm talking now. i never was subtle, was i? but i think i was being selfish. it was always i, i, i, and no one else but me.
i honestly don't know how to continue from here, how to convey the message to the some dozen people that think we're a couple, that we're
not. i may have gotten an a1 for my english, but i have zero conveying skills. i have no idea how to say this. we can remain close, but somehow, we shouldn't be as close as we were before. i think i was getting too comfortable. and that can sometimes pose problems. pastor always talks about stepping out of our comfort zone, and that's what we ought to do. things won't change, things never do. but in the end, it won't remain like this forever. some people's priorities are their own comfort, and i was one of those people. but those people never consider others' feelings, and sometimes priorities have to be set straight.
i know we used to be together. but that was several months ago, and we broke up because both of us were only thinking about ourselves, and, at the time, i didn't feel it was a very big loss to you, because you sure didn't act like it. i still don't feel that way. but it
is wrong, at least to me, to be so ...together, when we both know it's all an act. we have to remember that we are both individuals, and we should remain that way.
