how is it that after nearly ten days of separation, the blood in my veins still boils at the very mention of your name? my heart beats faster,
my pupils dilate, my eye colour darkens to the color of hot coffee, and my fists clench. and i wonder how ten days can seem like ten months, i realise that i miss you. how was it that you could get into me so easily and make me crumble bit by bit? i couldnt think of anything but you, and i couldnt help it. even by forcing myself to think about something else, my mind still wandered back to you. you hurt me to the extent that i shed tears over you. and i dont cry easily; the only time i do is when God touches me, and when i'm really, really, wounded. well, i guess it happened.
what made you ignore me, what made you cheat on me, how did you make me love you by forcing fake love on me? and how did you make it so real that i believed you? thats not hard to do though, i believe anyone when they tell me anything vaguely believable.
its not how you did it; its
why.so help me God, to get over and get on with my life.
it'll be easier to pick up the broken pieces with You by my side.
when i come back, into the place where i love the most
my heart may feel broken, my soul abandoned by the Holy Ghost
but when He starts to heal me, i know thats all just a lie
i realise that He loves me too much to just let me die.
and i feel His warm touch healing my heart
that's when i know that He'll stay in there, never to depart
as i surrender to the feeling of acceptance overwhelming me
"God," i pray, "never leave me."
if only adam and eve had never sinned against You
then i would be with You forever, too
when i'm not with You i feel this hunger slowly killing me each day
i'm just crazed for You, what can i say?
how i love You.
