is this how it feels to have someone break your heart?
i never knew how it felt until now.
although he says its not what i think. and i dont doubt him. but why, why, why must the first time i have a heartbreak, it must be from the person i love most? of all, besides God, i loved
you most. and after i promised myself you would be the last one i'd ever love. and you had to break my heart and make me look like a fool. a fool for you.
if you dont love her anymore, why'd you still accept that testimonial.? couldnt you just tell her how you felt? unless you're keeping either me or her dangling.
you never seem to find time to talk to me. couldnt you just say something? and even if you're not with your phone, couldnt you just answer
one of my texts when you got back with your phone? you didnt even bother.
i'm too tired, too confused and too stressed up to deal with this right now. all i wanted was to love you. if you dont love me back you could tell me. now you know, so i'll leave it up to you. i never knew heartbreak could be so unbearable, so painful.. and last for so long. my heart is breaking bit by bit, and i wont be surprised if it's going to take eternity to heal. even for God, my heart will need TLC that you were able to easily provide but chose not to. my heart hurts. it really, really hurts.
two can play at that game.
i'm getting so tired, so hurt, so discouraged by events and things happening. sometimes it feels like the whole world is against my trying to live my life and love it. each time i fall down, i pick myself up. but it's getting harder and harder. and soon it'll be totally impossible. i need someone to help me stand again. but who?
